Free from so many things

…Not living up to cultural standards
…Being expected to apologize for the consequences of his behavior
…Feelings of low self-worth
…Believing that I am incapable of being successful on my own
…Questioning my suitability as a mother
…Comparing myself to other women
…Doubting my attractiveness and sex appeal
…Feeling unworthy of love and respect
…Blaming myself for not being good enough
…Walking on eggshells
…Talking in circles and trying to decipher evasive communication
…Wondering where he is and who he’s with
…Fighting for honesty
…Not having transparency in my marriage
…Arguing and trying to make the case for the biblical tenants of marriage
…Being told that I don’t love
…Defending my ability to love
…Feeling like a failure at taking care of my home and children
…Feeling like I’m not enough
…Feeling like I’ll never be enough
…Wondering why me
…Fear that my children will be taken away
…Questioning my ability to be a loving, kind and respectful wife
…Trying to figure out what he wants
…Trying to figure out how he feels
…Being shut out emotionally
…Being told that I cannot be trusted with his feelings
…Feeling bad about the things I want
…Doubting my ability to manage finances in a healthy way
…Defending my morals and values
…Believing that who I am is inferior to his life and family
…Subtle insinuations that my family is somehow inferior to his
…Defending a person who will not do the same for me
…Secrets and white lies
…Obsessing about the truth
…Feeling I have no value to others as an individual
…‘Evil’ and ‘Darkness’ being spoken over my words and actions
…Doubting that I am a good person