Mental illness is a huge part of my identity. It’s probably the only part of my identity that I didn’t question during the divorce. I can question my identity as a mother, daughter, sister, wife, or friend. But my mental illness is not subjective. It can’t be questioned or debated.

I have bipolar disorder and ADD. Keyword: HAVE. I’m not bipolar. It’s something I have. Something I live with. But it’s not who I am.

Here’s the deal. Bipolar disorder doesn’t hinder my travel, but it does require extra effort in planning, preparation, and during travel to make sure I remain healthy while I’m away from home.

Controlled medications: My ADD medications are classified as schedule C, which means they are a controlled substance. The prescription can only be filled every 30 days. So I have to time my trips around my prescription refills.

Medication Laws: Laws and restrictions around medication vary from one country to the next. Before I travel somewhere new, I have to check the medication laws in that country.

Triggers: There are many things that can trigger a manic or depressive episode, and they vary from one person to the next. Sleep disruptions in particular can cause my mood to shift towards hypomania.

Packing Medication: Sometimes I have to travel with my bottles of medicine. The bottles verify that the medication belongs to me.

Behavioral Therapy: My therapist cannot provide services when I am out of the state. This means I have to make sure to deal with any challenges I may be experiencing before I travel.

Stress and Anxiety: Excessive stress and anxiety can overwhelm me and shift my mood towards depression. I have to be meticulous about planning.

Depression: The return home can trigger depression for me, especially after family vacations. I’ve learned how to consciously make a mental shift as the trip comes to a close.

My mental illness doesn’t lock me in a box. It just requires LOTS of discipline with a dash of common sense. And conquer the world I will!